Faith, what a loaded word!

Hi!
I saw this post today and thought….how very true ….time and again it is my immense Faith in God and my Guru that has given me the strength to move forward through the toughest times.
Reading it just took be back to 2006 to 2012.
The experience and learnings from those years are etched in my memory forever. It was those years when my dad was extremely sick and bedridden for 5 years or more. He had a disease that was extremely rare that left him completely paralysed, unable to eat and with no treatment.
Each day our immense Faith in God and our Guru was what guided my family and me and helped us to go through it. Our home ran like a mini ICU 24 hours for nearly 5 years. Even today when I recall, I just don’t know how we were really able to go through those challenging years.
I may have just slept 4 hours or less most days. But nothing stopped me from giving my best. I continuously experienced being guided and receiving all the energy required to take care and give him the best. My body worked beyond imagination. My spirit knew no boundary. I was truly blessed.
Every now and then we rushed to the hospital and back. I had my lows, my fears, my anger, my frustration and all this would also trigger me to fight with my family and doctors too. There were many times we had no help and had to manage everything ourselves which was extremely challenging. We had all this and more.
To add to this was our challenge with finances which drove Ashlesh to facilitate program after program with hardly any rest. All he knew was he wanted to give my dad the very best.
Life has it’s beautiful moments and must say even the worst.
In all this ups and downs, every moment was blessed with God’s and Master’s guidance and blessing disguised as people who supported us emotionally and financially, people registering for our programs, our team members’ support and in lot more many ways. For 6 years my dad miraculously lived beyond doctor’s expectation. All this renewed our faith and sealed it forever.
When I think of those 6 years I still cannot fathom how we really dealt with it. Each day was a celebration of my dad and his undying inner strength to go through his journey with a smile. His faith in Nature and himself was also one of major guiding force that allowed the whole family to live through, giving our best and being our best. What a great spirit!
Through how my dad journeyed during his illness, with great inner strength to fight and live each day through all the pain, joyfully with a smile, with so much love for his family that he continued the fight for more than 6 years never giving up, I got a glimpse into the essence of the teaching …we are not the body or the mind or the emotions… we are a soul, a spiritual being with divine intelligence. This learning has been something that has always been a great resource that I tap into.
We lost my dad in August 2012. To add to this loss we also lost our dear Papa, my father in law just 3 weeks after we lost my dad. Both our families were in shock and overwhelmed with grief.
This really tested my faith. What was God’s plan? Why did we loose both at the same time? What wrong did we do… so many questions unanswered.
But God had a plan. Both our families found the inner strength and faith to courageously face this. I don’t know why and how and in what…. but we still had great faith.
Through those years I experienced God’s and my Guru’s divine blessings, my dad’s undying spirit and love, Amma and Papa’s( my in laws) immense love and generosity that knew no boundaries, the silent love and total support and strength of Ashlesh, my mom’s inner strength, my sister’s love and support, my sister in law’s silent presence and continuous help, and presence of angels, Shalini, my Pranic healing teacher and Rama, a healer both who did healing for my dad, for me and my whole family, day and night to relieve our pain and heal us physically, mentally and emotionally, loads of love and support from friends and family and the dedication and care of all the attendants and doctors who took care of him.
So so very grateful. Can’t ever repay what each one provided. My gratitude, respect and love to God and Master and all these beautiful souls.
This life experience has been my most important spiritual learning that has left a mark and immense faith and strength deep within me that continuously guides me and expresses in the most difficult situations ,in my greatest times and in each and every day.
FAITH …. such a loaded word isn’t it?
May FAITH guide you in your most vulnerable and toughest and best times too.
Would love to hear your experiences and stories that have reinforced or helped you access Faith. Do share below.
Thank you
God bless
Love,
Monica